Emotional Rollercoaster.

Right here goes... over the past 2 weeks I've had a really rough patch and just moments were i don't know what I am going to do with my life cause i didn't really to do well in my Resits. It's still is heart breaking for me to bring up because i feel like such a failure even when i need to talk about it and come to terms with the situation.

But i know i have to get over the bumpy ride in my life and get ready for a new year of resitting my two modules that I am doing next year as a part time student instead of me resitting the whole year. My tutor gave me a really good option to do my two modules over a year as a part time student which is more healthier for me mentally wise because I really do not enjoy being put under to much pressure due to me suffering from all sorts of personal issues but i still have to hold my head high and drag myself through this because at University you can't just sit around and feel sorry for yourself, at the end of the day it's my own fault i fail my resits because i obviously didn't put all my full effort into the work and failed myself as a student.

My best friend / housemate has helped me out alot over the summer. Mentally wise because if it wasn't for her i would be a pathetic drop out of University which never looks good to other Universities if you go and apply for other ones in the near future. You really need a good reason to drop out and not just 'i couldn't be bothered' really isn't a good enough excuse which sometimes sadly alot of students think it's a easy road to go down. Like myself as a fresher when i first started, i thought i was the massive student who could roll in with just getting through with passes but honestly listen to a person who has been there and done it for a year... it's not as easy and it's gonna be stressful, hard, you will miss your family and you will have times where you just wanna give up at your worse but if you wanna give up then there's no point in you being at University just some sound advice for any student.

Next year, for me will entail me resitting two modules from my 2nd Semester over a year, i will be working on mini projects from what my tutor is gonna plan for me to build on a strong portfolio for me to keep me motivated and I plan on going on some travels in Summer so, i need to save up alittle from working and set some money aside for me. Well there's a story that i will remember for along time sorry i haven't posted for awhile just had a rough time getting my head around the fact i didn't do so well aha. :)

P.S. Hello New Freshers, stay strong. :]